A few weeks ago, I had a disagreement with a good buds of mine, C. It was over somethings he said that I find it terribly Hurtful. He in turn was angry with me for not facing the fact. But I have always known the truth and facts He probably didnt even know that I was angry with him till today. Partly maybe because, we have never really fight that badly and its always water under the bridge after a few hours or by the end of the day. But this time round, I was really hurt. I told B about what happen. B, laugh at me and C are like a married couple. We fight over the most trival matters. I sometimes even cry after i fight with C. Ha! Something he probably didnt know either. I explained the real reason behind why I was so-so angry with C to B. There are things that I have never told anyone except my sister whom i confine some secrets to. There are stuffs where I do not want anyone to judge me and ONLY i can tell it to my sister, who have always been there for me. Anyway, B kinda understand why i was so angry n hurt by C. B also said that maybe I shldnt take C words so much into heart and should just ignore it. BUT it make me realised, Whatever C said. It matters. Cos he was always there for me. I take in every of his words..... But B did said that I should let C knows why I am so angry. Perhaps he said those stuffs without scanning it and came out the wrong way.

BUT....

C has always been there when I was down. I always trusted him with his taste and hang on to everything he said. I would be in agonized when C issnt around when I make a big purchase. His comments have always meant so much to me. More than my boyfriend whom was quite offended when I said, I dont trust his taste but I DO trust C's taste. C was the 1st person I call when I have a problems. Problems with home, family, r/s , things that happen in Singapore tat are so beyond my control and thing that happen in Singapore that I could only heard and listen to and not do anything about it. So -SO many things happen when I was away in UK this past 5 years-ish. Dad's Health, Dad's Business, I missed my sister's graduation. I missed the birth of my niece birth... so many so many. C, was always there with a listening ear when I called him. He would just put things aside when I called him through the phone brawling out like a baby. C would always be there when Im stuck at school work, stuck with the concept ideas and when I need someone to talk to , to give me a clearer mind of what and where i've done. BASICALLY, C HAS always there for me even till today, this moment.

I msg C in desperation last night even though i was still angry with him. I was Once again, stuck with a difficult moment of time with my Primer concept. C msg me back via MSN and even suggest me to call him. He is not in Singapore and he is willing to let me call his sg mobile phone to help me discuss my work problem. I was shocked! Anyway, I called C and he helped me through the problems by giving me lots of suggestions. There is so much things he gave that it made me have a clearer mind of where I should head to.

After I put down the phone, I realised I wasn't that angry with him anymore. I'm still unhappy about what happen then. But the anger has gone.




To C:

B told me to talk to you about this. And i think I should. Ermmm, U should know me more than enough that I never confront people in this kind of situation. If not, maybe alot of my friendship crisis and problem would be solve! ha!!! Anyway , Im hurt not because of what U think U can achieve and U think i should too! Im hurt because YOU of all people were there when I went through so much in order to achieve what U did but I failed. The agony of going through those stuff and not achieving it. I have god damn tried so hard, Sacrifice so much but still getting the same result. Im angry WITH YOU because YOU were there for me when I was crying over it. You of all people should know how I felt when you try something so hard but yet stll fail. U were there for me during the whole path. BUT how could you forget and said I never really try ? How could You?? Really... that really hurts. You were the one who lend me a shoulder to cry on when it happens. How could you forget about it. How could u.........???

You should know that I treasure u so much as a friend. I hang on to every words u said. Not juz you. Yours and B. So whatever you guys said meant so much so much to me.

Anyway, Its Nov. We should have a fresh start. Lets be friends again. And I would like to thank you for being there always for me. Im truly grateful for it. I dont know what I have done to deserve a friend like you .

But really, Thank you.




B always said, people grow up and they change and friends starts to grow apart due to these changes. BUT ... I have always maintain that you two. B & C are the 2 friends I wanna grow old with. And you two are the people I want to be friends with forever. Things may change, people may change. But not our friendship. It is something which I have cherish it so much since 7-8 years ago (more than my Prada wallet u know).
Knowing B n C in college life was the best thing that happen to me. You guys made me who I am today. Without B, I would not be on the way (mind u, still pratising so hard) to a glamorizes tai tai lifestyle. .....Hahahaha.... Without C, I would not be addicted to Prada.

Its you guys who made Kris the way I am today.

Hey, You guys have to be responsible U know!! Anyway, It is really my pleasure knowing u 2. You made my dayz in Singapore so much more enjoyable......

Thank you once again and Frenz 4 ever! ?? !!


Love,
Kris